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So, I am a freshmen in college and for the first time in my life I am living somewhere where it actually gets cold during the winter.  It also rains here, which is also way different from my home town.

So, my question is, how do you stay looking cute when it is so goddamn cold out? I generally dress fairly girly, but I have no idea how to stay warm wearing my dresses and skirts.  Also, what do all of you guys do when it rains? I don't own any really rain friendly shoes and I am considering buying rain boots for the sake of simplicity.

I also need to look into buying my first winter coat. Do you all have any advice for what I should look for and/or what is in style?

Thanks in advance. (: 

 On 4/23/08 I weighed in at weight watchers at 172.9 lbs.
On 4/30/08 I weighed in at 169.4

A loss of three and a half pounds!  YAY!

Holy crap does going to the gym work.  I got a 7 day pass to 24 hour fitness thursday before last then this past wednesday, I bought my membership.  I've went 5 days my first week then a couple days since wednesday.  I plan to go 4 or 5 days a week.  I have an agreement with my mom that if I go three days a week she'll pay me back for the membership.  That's good incentive.  At the gym I usually do an hour on the elliptical then probably 15-20 minutes of stretching.  I try to do strength training 3 days a week.  Tomorrow, instead of the elliptical, I'm going to try the treadmill, so I don't get bored.


Last week's weight: 172.9
Current weight: 169.4
+/- : -3.5
+/- total: -12.6
Start weight: 181.0
STG: 160 lbs by June 17th (Graduation)
LTG: 145 by September 20th (University!) 
Ultimate goal: 135 lbs.

My current measurements are:
B: 38.5 (-1)
W: 33.25 (-.75)
H: 40 (-1)

Incentives:
165: 10% - Glen Ivy Hot Springs and Spa
160: 1 pair of new jeans
155: Manicure and Pedicure
150: Those shoes I am lusting after from journey's
145: 2nd 10% - Glen Ivy Hot Springs and Spa
140: $100 in new make up
135: New clothes.

Breakfast:
1 bowl frosted mini wheats with 2/3 c milk

Lunch:
1 veggie burger pattie over lettuce with tomato, onion, dill pickle and string cheese
home made baked-fries (2 small red potatoes worth) and katchup

Snack:
nibbles of left over mexican/barbecue from mom and dad.  (I didn't eat very much at all.)
1 container fage 0% yogurt with 2 tsp honey.



Exercise:
20 dokey kicks from hell per leg
20 regular crunches
15 bicycle crunches
1 hour on exercise bike

Current weight: 170.6
Start weight: 181.0
STG: 160 lbs by June 17th (Graduation)
LTG: 145 by September 20th (University!) 
Ultimate goal: 135 lbs.

My current measurements are:
B: 39.5
W: 34
H: 41

Incentives:
165: 10% - Glen Ivy Hot Springs and Spa
160: 1 pair of new jeans
155: Manicure and Pedicure
150: Those shoes I am lusting after from journey's
145: 2nd 10% - Glen Ivy Hot Springs and Spa
140: $100 in new make up
135: New clothes.

Fitness schedule:
Mondays: Strength training and yoga
Tuesdays: Ballet class
Wednesdays: Strength training
Thursdays: Ballet class
Friday: Strength traning
Saturday: Bike riding (stationary or mountain) or bellydancing and yoga
Sunday: Rest!

I'm going to try to add stationary bike to most of these days too, to up my cardio ammount.  I'm pretty sure my body is used to the ballet classes now.  Also, yoga/upper body s.t. is on hold until my wrist heals.  I can't hold any poses/do dumbells with a sprained wrist.

Today's food:
1 c. Frosted mini wheats and 2/3 c. fat free milk 
1 medium tomato
1 c. Tea with 1 tbsp honey

1 Bowl Annie Chun's Miso soup with noodles.  Added asian style veggies and green beans plus 2 oz deli turkey
1 c. milk
1 fudgesickle!

1 trader joe's middle eastern pizza bread with one tomato, one string cheese and some low fat pepperoni
1 c. milk
1 fudgesickle

snack:
1 bag 94% fat free popcorn
1 string cheese

Today's exercise: 
1 hour and 30 minutes on stationary bike.
30 reg. crunches 
10 bicycle crunches
20 "donkey kicks from hell" per leg.

 Well, after two weeks of fabulous loss, I fell off the bandwagon on wednesday and I haven't been able to hop back on.  I'll do better though.  I started today off with a ham and light cheese sandwich but then, the chocolate covered pretzels just fell into a bowl next to my computer.  Oops.  I feel pretty sick, so I probably won't do that again for a while.  I didn't exercise very well this week, except for yesterday.  I went on a two hour bike ride up the peters canyon trail.  That was fun.  After that I came home and did yoga and streched.  That was really the only exercise I got last week.  

Next week will be much better!  It will it will!

Measurements:
39 - 33.5 - 40.5

 Physics pwns me in the face.  That's what I get for spending the entire class discussing religion and literature with the muslim girl who sits next to me.  Maybe I won't fail if I start actually paying attention instead of sitting there reading or day dreaming.  Or, if I actually did my homework during the week.  GAH GAH GAH.

I've fallen off the diet wagon and I desperately need to get back on track.  There is a serious lack of good for me snacky foods in the house and I've just been eating everything that isn't nailed down.  Someone bought hershey's kisses with almonds and left them out on the coffee table.  I ate a good deal of those.  I intend on going healthy food shopping later, once mom gets home from work.  I can't trust my father to do the shopping because he always comes home with crap food.  (Like freezer orange chicken and seven layer frozen burritos.  WTF?!)  My mom goes shopping and makes good decisions, like buying extra lean ground beef and hummus.  Good job mom!

Anyhow, I decided to do the 12 week bride challenge on weightwatchers.com.  I am not getting married, lol.  I am just doing it for prom because it is in...12 weeks.  I still need to buy a dress.  My goodnesssssssss.  I don't even know what to start with.  I had a dress I'd like to have been ale to buy, but the largest size is still way out of reach for me.  Boo. Annnyhow, the bride challenge means I am going to start an exercise regimine, with like, strength training and stuff.  That'll be good for me.  Anything is better than the two ballet classes a week I get.  I just need to get more active.

My new exercise schedule:

Monday:  Strength training.  Walk to and from violin lessons
Tuesday: Ballet class, 1 hour; yoga 30 minutes
Wednesday: Strength training.  Weight watchers meeting.
Thursday: Ballet class, 1 hour 30 minutes; yoga 30 minutes
Friday: Strength training
Saturday: Cardio of some sort (Bellydance? Bike ride?)
Sunday: DAY OFF.  (Cleaning.)

I need to add in more cardio though.  Ballet isn't very much cardio, most of it is low impact.  I could ride my bike to and from the tuesday class, but that's not much added on.  I could practice bellydance on mondays too.  Or just do ballet practice.  I definately need that. 

Jesus H. Christ.  What does a girl have to do to be left alone.  My stalker ex is back to being a persistant bastard.  So far I have not picked up the phone once.  I am proud of myself.  I know he will keep on trying until I do somthing.


I am going crazy.  This shit is too much to deal with.  

I was going to write a big angry entry, but I turned on my music and decided it'd be more constructive to dance and sing the anger.  Plus, it'd be a hell of a lot more fun.
 

 Boys are entirely too confusing.  That's been my lament of the past year, and probably of 2008 too.  My ex boyfriend still will not leave me alone.  He's been saying he wants to be able to talk to me and even come to see me before he kills himself.  That's his plan.  What an idiot.  It's enitrely too tiresome to deal with.  It's been a year, why can't he just get over it?  Goodness.

Then, comes boy number two.  The one who is particularly confusing.  This is the silly one who wasn't sure if he was into me or not, kissed me, then told me he did it to "make us better friends".  Riiiiiiigggghtt.  Well, after a month or so of not talking, we started talking again over break.  It was refreshing to have someone to have a real conversation with again.  He's very intelligent and we can talk about so many things, music, art, literature, religion (our mutual lack thereof, rather), philosophy, you name it.  Now, both of us are pretending the whole fiasco didn't happen.  It makes it superficially less awkward, but deep down inside, it still sucks to make eye contact during a conversation.  That's for me anyways.  I have no idea what the fuck he feels in regards to the situation.  I get the impression he's chill.  But, I can't read people worth a crap.  It really sucks to still have feelings for him, but I just have to deal with that.  

I've been practicing the violin alot more lately.  It feels good to do somthing and get things accomplished.  The time just flys by when I am playing.  I think I want to get a new violin.  Birdie just isn't cutting it anymore.  The violin I used at school last year made me sound so good, it was a very warm, bright sound (CONTRADICITONS MUCH?!).  It's a $5000 violin.  Birdie is like $1500.  I think I need to upgrade, but I don't know if my parents would be willing to do that.  It'd benefit me greatly, as nothing makes you want to practice like knowing you sound good.  In the meantime though, I am going to experiment with different types of strings on her.  I ordered a pirastro gold e string to try.  It's a gut core.  I've never played with a gut core string (to my knowledge anyways), just synthetic cores.   I'm interested in how much of a difference it'll make in my playing.  The strings I have on her now are dominants, and they're pretty new.  I think I had them put on at the end of November.  My dad would throw a fit if I asked for $60 to buy a new set to experiment with.  I've heard good things about Pirastro's Obligatos and Evah Pirazzis.  I think I want to try Obligatos next, because I hear the Evahs wear out pretty quickly.  I could probably use a new bow too, but I don't see that happening any more than a new violin.

I found a database of free-domain sheet music.  It's AMAZING.  Thank you project Gutenberg!  I found a Beethoven Sonata that looks interesting.  It seems like it's within my skill level, some parts look (and sound) pretty difficult.  I suppose I've played things just as difficult, but it dosn't feel that way.  I should ask my teacher about it at monday's lesson, eventhough I am working on Csardas again.  The first time I learned it, I didn't get the false harmonics, so we're doing it again.  I still need to prepare somthing for the solo-ensemble concert in April.  I'm still toying with the idea of doing a small chamber ensemble to play St. Paul's Suite.  We'd either play the Jig or the Dargason.  I love St. Pauls Suite, but I don't know if everyone would be committed to practicing it and making it good.  What's the point if we're just going to sound like shit?

Anyhow, I'm tired. This was pretty long.  And now I'm feeling kinda down.  What a bummer.  I'mma go nap or just lay down and think.  I have alot to think about.

I went to South Coast Plaza today!  It was super fun.  I picked up my dress for winter formal.  It's by JS Boutique.  It's black velvet with fantastic rouching to hide blurbs of fat and such.  It has a white beaded yoke.  It's beautiful.  My first real long formal dress.  I am going to wear it with my opera length white gloves and probably my black heels.  I am on a quest for the perfect updo though.  Makeup wise, I am totally feeling red lips to contrast all the black and white.

Aside from buying my dress we wandered around a bit and tried things on.  I found this cute coat.  It was yellow and green plaid (ick), but it was cut so adorably and it had fantastic buttons.  It was dress length and light weight fabric.  It was perfect, excpet for the fact that it was yellow and green plaid.  The fabric wasn't really that bad, but it was alot cuter in the purple and green plaid that only came in a medium.  

Zara was a goldmine of fantastic clothes and shoes.  There were these beautiful silk dresses on sale for like $40, again, they didn't come in my size.  But, my goodness were they beautiful.  I also found some fantastic ankle oxfords.  They were reduced to $60 from $100, and they made my legs look AMAZING.  Black and white patent.  I should have got them, but I didn't have enough funds in my bank account after buying my dress.  Plus, it is really hard for me to justify buying $60 shoes.  D:

After our shopping, we went to Icepan.  The most amazing ice cream place ever.  They just take milk and freeze it.  You can have it be chocolate, yogurt, milk whatever.  It is so good.  Just milk and whatever mix in.  DELICIOUS!

I went to work today.  I MADE MONEY, IT WAS AWESOME.  It'll make my pitiful $0.64 in my checking account happy.  I'm working again tomorrow and Saturday too, then two more days next week probably.  I'll actually not be broke for once.

Diet is going marginally, but it's the holidays.  There's tons of good food around, so why bother trying to fight it?  I will get back to being good once all the crap-food is out of the house.

Weight loss isn't going as super as it can.  I'm OFFICIALLY 174 lbs, but I probably put some back on over this past weekend.  I had fun, but I ate alot more than I should have.  It's no biggie though.  It's a new day and I did much better today than I had this weekend.  I even did a pilates video tonight!

I am going to start ballet classes again!  Well, as soon as marching season is over, because the classes I can take are on tuseday and thursdays during rehearsal times.  One is a ballet 2 and one is a ballet 3 class.  I hope to progress alot.  Plus, it'll help me lose weight and add incentive to lose weight (leotard and tights?).  Plus, I really miss it and I enjoy it alot.

I've started to work on my flexibility again.  I have a lower body pilates video that has alot of ballet-type moves in it, I did that today then I stretched for 30 minutes.  I am working on my splits again.  I have got a ways to go before I am at the same place as I was before.

I started weight watchers a week and a half ago at 182 lbs.  On wednesday (my meeting day) I had lost 2.6 pounds, putting me at 179.4.  My 10% is 163.8.  I think I'll just round it down to 163.  Ultimately I'd like to be in the 140's or even high 130's.  I can do it if I try hard enough.

I hope to have met my goal by senior prom in May, if not by then, than by graduation in June.  This might be a touch pie in the sky, but if I lose a pound a week I can get down to 146 at least.  I know I can do at least that.  (:

As Senior year steadily grows nearer, I have come to realize how much I have fucked up over my past high school carreer.  I was surfing collegeboard.com and as it stands now, chances are extremely slim that I'll get into a UC school.  Fuck.  There's not much you can do with a cumulative gpa of 3.06.  

I am totally screwed.

I won't have any respect for myself if I go through a community college.  I've taken classes at JC's and the student body isn't exactly...excited to be there.  

All I can do is hope and pray that my extra curriculars will drag me up a little.

I am on antibiotics now for my face.  One of the possible side effects is "black hairy tongue".  Fantastic.

I'm also back on birthcontrol.  However, I've been forgetting to take a pill every couple days.  I guess it show how I know, deep down inside, that I am not going to get any for a long long time.  Possibly because of my "black hairy tongue".

So, I leave for Spain on Wednesday, 5 days and counting!  However, I am getting totally screwed over in the beaurocracy department in getting prepared for this trip.

Today, I spent 45 minutes on hold with the passport department (not to mention the other 10 tries where they just said "Sorry, we can't connect you so try again later")  Fuck.  I found out that they finished my passport today and mailed it.  Fantastic.  Only 2 weeks later than what we paid for.  UGGH.

I also found out today that my doctor won't put an extention on my perscription for one month because she wants me to come in for an evaluation.  Unfortunately, there were no appointments for before I leave so I had to make one for two days after I get back from Spain.  The idiots at the doctor's office didn't figure it out and said that I have to have an evaluation to refill my perscription.  It runs out halfway through my vacation.  I don't think I'll be a very happy person without my pills.  I could have fixed that problem today, unfortunately I didn't get the message off of my machine until after I got home from work.  This is after the doctor's office closes, of course.  And, it being a Friday, I must wait until Monday.  Cutting it extremely close to when I leave.  UGGH.

The last thing pissing me off is the fact that I haven't gotten the information on my family from the exchange company.  I was supposed to find this stuff out two to three weeks ago.  GODDAMNIT.  Why can't these people send things out when they say they will.  To top it off, on monday they said that they'd send out the info on monday or tuseday.  It takes two to three days for mail to get here.  So it should have come yesterday or today.  But it did not.  Instead, yesterday we got a bill from them.  So, somthing should have come today or yesterday.  Uggh.  I hope it comes tomorrow, if it dosn't I'll scream.

I thoroughly dislike beaurocracy.

It was disgustingly hot today.  At 2:30-ish it was probably 102 degrees.  It was just horrible and unbarable.  It was like being in the desert.  Ergh.

I have a headache.  Two advil down and nothing has happened.  I decided that it would be a good idea to skip dance class.  So, here I am, with the fan on and windows open, trying to cool down and feel better.  It's not usually a good idea to skip dance class.  I need all the cardio I can get.  I haven't been doing so well with the whole exercising thing.  I only did strength training once last week and cardio was definately lacking.  I just need to get back into the swing of things.  I've almost lost 10 pounds!  Only thirty-five more to go!

I need to get a good tinted moisturizer and face sunscreen.  I am absolutely hopeless at picking stuff out.  I have to wade through makeupalley.com.  FUN!

I spent 3 and a half hours this morning working on my dress.  It is so pretty, but it is a challenging piece.  The pattern, which was supposedly sized for a 30 inch waist (which I am definately not), is huge on me.  I need to take it in on the front and back princess seams.  I am definately going to have a tough week ahead of me.  I have to finish up my dress, get my nails done, go to the salon again for my hair  AND, do my homework.  It'll all get done eventually.  I hope.

Yesterday was an extrememly productive day.  Unfortunately, my riding lesson was cancelled without me being informed, so I got to the stable and my trainer's groom told me that Lisa was at a horseshow in Paso Robles.  My mother decided that it would be wisest to just go to work early, and after, we would go shopping.  Primarily for clothes for the crise she is going on, but I got some nifty stuff too.


Now I just need to get some nice sundresses and blouses.  And a couple of nice skirts.  Oh whee! 

The musical is done, thank god.  There are people who will be missed and others, not so much.  There wasn't as much drama as there was with Cabaret, but still these musicals seem like they're all drama all the time.  Blargh.  Oh well.

My "quest for a healthier lifestyle" is going great.  I've lost 6 lbs in two weeks.  :D  Hooray.  I'm totally excited to loose weight.  I want to fit into all my great vintage dresses and skirts and such.